Day 5 of the month of me.
I don’t like to lose.
I feel like I’ve had so much stuff go wrong in my life that if I “lose” at something, I feel like a complete failure.
This also causes me to get extremely depressed and feeling like I’m a waste.
Now simple little things like board games that don’t matter, I don’t care about. Although, I do get competitive. I’m talking about big life things.
Any let down basically.
I really take it hard and it just reminds me of my past of constant let down.
Yes, it’s such a trigger.